February 26, 2006 at 11:47 pm (Uncategorized)

I had a long post planned for today. I wanted to let go of lots of feelings and thoughts that I have in my head/heart, but I guess I won’t.

I feel tired. My body feels weak, my brain feels numb, my heart… lets not even go there.

I write for a living, and I realized that I have been blogging much much less since I started this job. Maybe I just want to relax at home after a long day of work? But so much has happened in the past 6 months… so much. I wish I could just let everything out, and heave a sigh of relief, but as the cliche says – truth hurts (and I might not be the one getting hurt, heh).

So yeah… it’s been a long 6 months, but the past 2 months have been the longest. The past 2 weeks? It’s been hell.

So here I am, sitting at home staring at my two computer screens – it seems like I cant escape these electical buggers. Maybe it’s the prolonged exposure to the rays they emit. Maybe thats making me tired. Maybe I’m just realizing the truth. Truth hurts.

Maybe I’m just tired of the recuring experiences. It seems like my life has been stuck in a cruel cycle – the same things keep happening over and over again, and like a blooming idiot, I just go with the flow and keep the cycle going. Maybe I’m so tired of running in circles. Maybe I’m tired because I’m trying too hard to get out of the cycles?

Maybe I’m just tired of life as a whole. Who knows.


  1. faridz7 said,

    arent you like only a year older than i am? 23? and youre tired of life already? cant be that bad can it? cheer up buddy! play some futsal! chill baller!

  2. Charles said,

    thought my beer helped… guess not… sorry i meant beerS… take care bro… should you need someone, call me..

  3. faridz7 said,

    bear, charles? thats gay.

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