Troubling Times

January 31, 2007 at 1:48 pm (Craps, GY 白 TULAN, Useless Information)

I’m facing the facts – I’m in trouble.

Fuckup #1
I have 40+ pages to complete by the 7th of Feb so we can complete the next issue before CNY.

That means I’ll have to consistantly churn out about 6 to 7 pages a day – every day. That includes Saturday and Sunday. I’m pretty fucked.

Fuckup #2
Everything about me and GF seems pretty fucked up in my head now. We don’t have any problems between us – apart from the fact that I’m here in KL while she’s in SG.

Sure, people say it’s so near compared to their KL->AUS relationships or their KL->US relationships or whatever, but fuck you. As long as she’s not in KL, its far. Period. Mother fuckers.

And yes, the fact that she’s not around is getting to my head. I can’t talk to her the way I used to, and the phone bills are killing me. I can’t see her or hold her hand or have dinner with her. The 2 – 3 days we meet, once a month feels like shit compared to what we had.

It just seems so empty – which is probably why I never approved of long distance relationships.

The worst part is when there’s no ultimatum between us – no definate time frame. It’s not like she’s going to study for her degree and will definately be back in 3 or 4 years. She’s going to work till she “has saved enough money”. How long will that be? 1 year? 2 years? 10 years?

So what if I’m selfish. I think I’m entitled to my own opinion on this matter and I’m entitled to do what I think is best for me. It might not be best for her, but she has already chosen what she thinks will be best for her. Tough then.

Fuckup #3
My recent Phuket trip was quite a bore. I got a tiny tan, and since I fucking hate to see my skin dark, I’m pretty unhappy about it. Fucking sunblock not doing it’s fucking job. Mother fucker!!!

I’m also pretty annoyed at the way the trip transpired. A trip to Phuket should be about fun and relaxation. It ended up being a whining session, and thus ended up as quite a drag.

Quite honestly, I couldn’t wait to get back home. Honest.

Fuckup #4
While my magazine is still new, it’s already been the brunt of some unpleasent comments. I think I can finally understand how Adlin and the gang felt when their first issue of their magazine came under scrutiny.

Even though I wasn’t involved in this issue, I still feel uneasy about it – only because I am now associated, and might one day take over this title.

To the critics – thanks for your critical eye. Thanks for your ruthless comments. For the record, the piece was done by one of our free lancers, but then again, since it’s plagiarism, it isn’t worth shit.

Yes. You are rite to suan us for running a blatantly coppied article, but unlike Bolas who told me about it in person, you lacked class and tact by bringing it up to the public.

But then again, I guess you probably did so you could further boost the repo of your own publication huh? All’s fair in war, right? :)

1 Comment

  1. i ling said,

    was our Phuket trip better? say it admit it :)
    And don’t fret so much bout gwen, things will find it way. just be patient. i’m here.

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